I sometimes wonder at all the things I do (or don’t do) that I never intended or wanted to do. Like, why did I totally forget to go to a bridal shower that was right on my calendar in black & white for weeks…there I was munching on my lunch when I suddenly realized I was supposed to be in Staten Island. WHAAAAT?! Or binge watching Downton Abbey until 3 am even though I knew I needed to be rested the next day. Procrastination is also one of my most unwanted of “do’s” --- I always swear that NEXT time I will not leave everything until the last minute.
One way I have evolved (thank goodness!) is that I have learned to no longer tie my identity, my “who” to my “do.” This saves a lot of wear and tear on my soul. Just because I am not happy with what I’ve done, it no longer makes me feel badly about myself --- who I am, My Self. Whether I mess up or make bad choices, it does not shake my identity as a loving, intelligent, beautiful, beloved of God, woman/wife/mother/daughter/friend. Wow! So glad I finally got this --- it frees up all that energy that I used to expend in ruminating or kicking my Self for one of my “do’s.”
When my daughter visits from Nashville, she always exclaims that I must be “Benjamin Button.” We laugh, but in many ways I actually do look younger at 60 than I did at 40! Old pictures remind me of where I was in life back then --- child-rearing, financial stress, midlife marital tension, mixed with a total lack of self-care. Look how I dressed --- pull-on shorts, baggy tee-shirt, ANKLETS, with Rockport walking shoes --- WHAAAAT??!
So what has turned me into a reverse aging miracle? Well, I have figured out how to live from the inside out. Back then, I was completely focused on the care of the people and things in my life. I was running at 90 miles an hour without a single pause for looking inward and nurturing My Self. At 53 when my husband died & my youngest child went off to college, I suddenly found myself forced to do business with Me, and through a harsh labor, I gave birth to My Self.
I believe we are meant to live from the inside out ---- Spirit (True Self), to Heart (Emotions), to Mind (Intellect) to Body. When this order is working well, we turn into Benjamin Button, getting younger every day, childlike but not childish.
One of my favorite parts of my job is helping women give birth to their True Self. Mind-body nutrition course-corrects not just in the realm of food, but also uncovers the Spirit, unleashing a life of vitality, lived from the inside out. Wanna be “Benjamin Button”? --- give me a call.